20050526
Alrite guys, I have 7 mins haha
Woohoo juz received great news, my parents are flyin to China for 10 days on the 8th of June, with my sister for a holiday. Couldn't go with them no matter how they tried :p due to the intensive training for nationals. My coach would whack the hell outta me if i went. Anyways... that means 10 daes of complete freedom! Haha... guys I am temporary freed! Can stay out real late and you guys can come crash at up my house i suppose :p hahaez
Well well...but the bad thing is...
My maid is going for a 3 week holiday on the 7th of June. I am sooo dead.. That leaves me with me and my elder sis. The house will be in a horrifying mess at the end of the 10 daes i suppose.
I can't iron and wash my clothes! goodness gee! How am i suppose to survive!!!
Somebody SAVE ME!
posted @ 10:23 PM
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20050516
Many things have happened in the past few weeks... particularly my injuries, they have worsened...
Readers...I guess all of you must have been sick and tired of hearing the updates of my injuries, especially when most of them were negative ones. I am sorry that I am still the incorrigible, stubborn ass, that you guys have alway knew. I have tried my best to change.
How i wish i could stop throwing once and for all... how i wished... But its too late...the school have decided to send me to compete in nationals. I have went too far to turn back now... If i were to back up at this moment... I would be letting my school down...something which I must not do...
It wasn't my choice to take part in this competition. For the past 2 years...ever since the national track and field meet in secondary two... I haven lived a single day - a day which is pain free. Even simple tasks, such as writing, typing and smsing... my injured wrists still feel the strain. Yes..its true... i do feel pain even while i am typing this entry. Though pain is something everi man shld endure... this pain is a totally different thing.. it is a reflection of my weakness... the pain which constantly reminds me of the mistake i have made. And the result of that mistake? a pain that sticks to you for years... a pain that grips you like a vice.... reluctant to let go no matter how hard you pray, rest and change.
As time went by, I learnt several important lessons. Most importantly, I learnt to accept fate. For things that can't be controlled, give in to fate...I guess thats the best way of handling an unalterable situation. I do not mean giving up life and viewing everything in your world in a fatalistic manner... absolutely no. What i mean is let the matter pass... and MOVE ON with life...there are still so many goals that are yet to be achieved in life.
Yesterday, I read an article in the Zb Chinese Newspaper which made me thought about my involvement in track and field for the past 4 yrs. Not that I was a regular reader of the particular chinese newspaper, but my dad brought this particular article to my attention. The article was about the story of a die-hard athelete Eileen Chai, the current 110m Hurdles record holder. Now 26 yrs old, Eileen's "carrier" as a tracker was short-lived as well because of an overwhelmming amount of injuries. Almost immediately after she broke the 110 Hurdles record at the age of 17, she was too badly injured that she had to quit running. Spot the similarity...haha hiy... its juz a diff age and a diff event, however, her achievements in sports are much much more den mine... shes a rare talent ...
She trains really really hard for her event, and has an undying passion for it. unfortunately, she worked so damn hard and injured herself because of overtraining, which abruptly puts her "career" to an end.
"Success... its all about passion and hardwork."
"Know your limits.. or hardwork might ruin you instead"
I totally agree with what she has said.....especially after all that I have went through.
When you are clearly aware that hardwork is the most important recipe for success, you made an important decision to make sacrifices in life, in order to achieve your dreams... Yet... it backfires, and you find yourself crippled at the starting point, unable to fight for your dreams anymore. What could be more devastating than this?
To all those friends out there... thanks for all your concern. The chats, the tags, the messages. And thanks for accepting me as a friend for who I am, the bloody stubbon ass.I wished... I wished... I wished...
posted @ 9:29 PM
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20050509
I spoilt my IPOD.
I sprained my ankle again.
I lost my team singapore water bottle, and will never ever get one again.
Nationals is in exactly 2 mths time. With my current injuries, i can't even start proper trng yet. Yes, thats the end, of my dream.
No Record broken.
No Gold Medal
Not even a silver medal.
Why is everything so fked up!
my injuries! why!
this bloody gift of throwing has destroyed my life, and now... I am back to the starting point, with limbs that are twice as weak and joints that are damaged inside out!!
whats the use of setting the nat record! when the path after it leads to a dead end, and you have to struggle back to the starting point with a body defeated by injuries? Is it worthwhile to pay such a price, just for glory and honour?
The worst mistake that you have committed in your life, nicholas yong, is that you do not understand the word "limit". Perhaps that was the reason that made you work extremely hard and achieve impossible results... and also the reason that harmed you twice as much, in the long run....
posted @ 4:40 PM
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20050501
Grab a list that shows what most people find hard to tolerate, you will definitely find that acts of hypocrisy is usually ranked among the top few places.
Despite the overwhelming hatred for such "hypocrites",the fact is that most of are actually hypocrites ourselves. To `err' is human. It is normal that we become hypocrites at a certain point of time in life, and I personally believe that there is a need for such an act in order to survive in this world. Imagine, what would happened if everyone just goes up and hurl abuses at those whom they hate or dislike, pointing the finger straight in your faces, life would have been a battlefield.
As such, the issue here is no longer a matter of who the hypocrites are; instead we are more concerned about the DEGREE of it.
Hence, it's not accurate to classify someone as a hypocrite just because he has committed too many acts of hypocrisy. It's just like saying he's an imperfect man, when everyone else in the world is actually imperfect too -_-
However, for convenient purposes I would be using the conventional meaning of hypocrite (hypocrite =people who have committed far too many acts of hypocrisy) in my entry.
Hypocrites:
There are basically 2 types of hypocrites.
1. The ones who love to talk behind the back of others.
2. The ones who pretend to have virtues, beliefs and feelings though he or she does not possess it.
1. First I would like to clarify that there is a huge misconception that acts of hypocrisy include actions, such as talking behind the back of others. It is just because of the fact that the word "hypocrite" is always used by the masses to describe them, esp teenagers like you and I, so much so that it is actually a common but wrong usage of word. A hypocrite is actually one who tries to deceive others that he possesses something which he actually does not, which will be mentioned in the 2nd part.
The act of talking behind the back of others is an extremely commonly seen one. I believe everyone have committed such an act in some point of their life. Bitching and gossiping behind the back of others, such a tempting thing to do isn't it? How many of us can actually muster the courage, resist it, be a wet blanket for a good purpose, and walk away.
Some of us usually try to keep a distance with those whom we bitch, While others continue to act as though they are the best of friends, and when their targets turn their back, but the greatest is behind..their true colours surface. I find the former acceptable, but definitely not the latter. I guess the second case mostly happens to girls yea? :X no offense
Think about it. Dun you the thing the main reason behind MOST cases is ---> "jealousy" - just by hearing various stories you can spot that common trend, its juz that one ever admits
(take note: i said most, not all)
Many of us have been through the first case so do not worry...and before you start punishing and reprimanding yourself for being a jerk, i would like to say that it isn't that bad, and we ain't perfect beings anyway.
However, for the rare species who have the courage to stand up and disappoint your friends by indicating that you do you wish to take part in a bitching conversation, you have my utmost respect. You might be cast aside for now, but u will reap the greatest rewards, and gain the respect of others one day.
sorri for the sucky grammar and language, cause i am in a rush ppl
part 2 will come soon, this is not the end yet.
posted @ 12:36 AM
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